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The Kakama wrote:For an example, in education it is thought that being gay is a choice.

heh.
Idiots.

After posting that long dream post, I remembered that I had another dream a while back about my exgirlfriend.

Basically I dreamed that we were in college together, and we had to take cars to get to our next class, which we shared. (We don't talk and probably never will again) In the dream, something went wrong with our cars, and everyone left for class except for us. She noticed me and walked up to me, saying if I could walk her to class. I wasn't really happy about this because I promised not to talk to her, but I didn't want to appear unfriendly, so I said yes. Somehow this walk took three miles and wound by the side of this perfectly still lake, in the middle of the fall.

The whole way, I can't remember what we were talking about, but she was being extra friendly and physically close to me, brushing up against me, holding my hand, and trying to lean her head on my shoulder when we stopped at a bench. (In real life she was pretty much the complete opposite, not really wanting to show emotion, but then after we broke up she started getting into all these one-night stands and sexual relations with other random guys, but then would come back to tell me she didn't feel happy about what she was doing, ain't that funny. I can tell you more about that whole process later) Anyway we made it to class, which was Biology or something similar, and it was held outside by the water's edge. *wakes up*

Water stands for the urgent need to pee.

That's enough deep analysis from me for today!
But I would like to read what she said, because complicated relationships/ people confuse me, so I try to learn more about it

Like talking to this guy and how we both dance around the subject of attraction while laying out hints for each other... We are talking about meeting up and spending a few days together, and listing things we can do, of course ignoring the obviousness. He's funny

we both like each other, we're just both having fun together before we reveal it to each other

@Gem: be sure to enjoy the next couple of days. They're gonna be crucial, as you'll probably see whether your interest for each other holds out past the energy of just a few days.

@RD. thank you for out so so much for your interpretations. They really helped guide me. Who knew what the presence of water could reveal about myself :3

I would share the conversation but I'm really trying to forget about her. When we were together we didn't really know what we were doing and I'm trying to forget about her. Which is the Reall struggle, trying to forget her but keep the warm fuzzy feelings she brought.

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LOL

There was a huge plot twist tonight, but we cleared up confusion and are going to remain friends, though open to the idea of something else developing if the situation merits it.

Error_3113 wrote:@Gem: be sure to enjoy the next couple of days. They're gonna be crucial, as you'll probably see whether your interest for each other holds out past the energy of just a few days.

@RD. thank you for out so so much for your interpretations. They really helped guide me. Who knew what the presence of water could reveal about myself :3

I would share the conversation but I'm really trying to forget about her. When we were together we didn't really know what we were doing and I'm trying to forget about her. Which is the Reall struggle, trying to forget her but keep the warm fuzzy feelings she brought.

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Ok hope I didn't offend you, I thought it wouldn't be a problem as you said you could tell more later.

No offense taken, I just changed my mind.

[from dreams]

Ehnic, I encourage you to maybe take it easy on trying to guess what she's thinking. From my experience, trying to guess another human's thoughts and planning your actions based on what you think they think isn't the best option. If I were you I would let her go her own way and not question what she's about to do or not do. It makes everything easier and less stressful, in my opinion. I could tell supporting stories from my own background, but I'm just saying what I learned.

I'm not planning any actions, I already said I don't want to commit the same error as January 23rd, I lost all hope on it, not thinking it, nor doing it. The issue was just that I can't stop dreaming about it becuase I saw her in July 21st looking at me, isn't all that clear?

I don't want to discuss this...