Apocrypha wrote:Though I should ask, @Ko9, why exactly it seems like me making BTM 7 brought up these feelings for you because you've alluded to multiple times now that "BTM 7 has more or less destroyed you"
Ko9 wrote:Well destroy not. I try to be more in the background of everyone.
I am not the person I want to be now, I suck, ass.
I am taking a break, just in the background is not working for me.
So I just take a break, cool down. Get stuff figured out.
I am suicidal, I know that. People around me know that.
So they do the worrying for that, you do not have to.
I don't know if I am going back in the community, I'll play the games till death.
If you think I am bragging for attension, you do you, I do me. Ignore me if you want.
-Ko9
I am not quite a productive person, but that's probably because I have a quite lack of positive motivation. It really sucks when people tells you just plain terrible, unspeakable stuff to ultimate intimidate you so that you do stuff only for fear of whatever they told you. I am a very optimistic person, so I find these kind of treatment to be disrespectful at most.
The very few things I do is because I'm kindly encouraged to do so, but for most things in general I feel discouraged because people around me tell me shit about doing stuff, and the least thing I want is to change myself to be assimilated by pessimism, which I fear to do so.
So I was told to fear the "Do" and the "Don't". But now, I'm motivated to do stuff because now I was told be someone that if I didn't, I would end in someone's torture chamber, more or less. Bullshit right? But still, mind disturbing...
Ah yes, I've been here before. My one tip is: Try not to overthink. Listen only to yourself, but sometimes don't, you know?
I hope you feel better soon!
Why do people who enjoy content not understand that it constantly changes and the makers of content do not own anything to anyone. Jezus christ if you do not like something an artist made feel free to move to others. That is fine. Instead of typing: Oh my god your content from *instert date here* is so much worse than *instert another date here*.
